My husband bought me the book, "The Fault in Our Stars" by John Green for Christmas. It is a fictional account from the point of view of a teenager dealing with terminal cancer. I wasn't sure how I was going to like it but I wanted to give it a shot because the book jacket information was interesting. Turns out, it is funny and tragic and wonderful in a lot of ways. You don't really expect a fictional book to teach you things about yourself but this one did. I came to the conclusion that I think I gave up after I was diagnosed with MS. Maybe not right away, but eventually I think I felt like I had no chance of getting better or living a happy, pain-free life anymore. This was made much worse by the terrible exacerbation I experienced in March 2013. I was basically forced (by me) to quit singing at my church as it was ending up to be a ton of stress that nobody really cared about but me. Several people said they would help, but didn't. I had to go through three days of steroid infusions followed by about a month of steroids to taper down. Suffice it to say, this is not fun. Feel free to look up the potential side effects of steroids if you don't believe me. I get most of them.
There is a line in the book that really stuck out to me, "My final chapter was written upon diagnosis". I really think I felt like this when I was diagnosed. I thought, well, there we have it. I am going to slowly deteriorate until I meet a very painful end, likely caused by no longer being able to breathe. Or something like that. But I realized, that may be my ending. But it might not too. With regards to the multiple sclerosis (they are scary words, yes?), I am very much on the mild end of the spectrum. Looking at me, you would never be able to tell as I am fully mobile and require no walking assistance devices. Talking to me, hopefully you would be able to tell that I am educated well, though I do tend to mix words up sometimes and have difficulty coming up with words as well, at times. You may even find spelling or grammatical errors in this post. I am fatigued much of the time, but it is relatively easy to cope with as long as I give myself time.
I'll admit, some of the projects that I would like to get completed are a bit scary to think about at this time. But it is stuff that I am fully capable of - painting, pulling up carpet, etc. It's scary because I have always been so independent. Now I am forced to rely on others to help me do what I cannot. It takes me a long time to clean the house, because I get tired easily. But I CAN do it.
So, my goal this year is to focus on being a healthier version of me. Eating less and more healthy. Moving more and getting more stuff done instead of vegging. Making sure my husband knows how very much I value him and his love (more than anything). What I am less focused on is what everyone else thinks I should or should not be doing. I have set strict limits and boundaries on myself to avoid becoming over-stressed. These have been and are working in my favor and today I feel better than I have in a long time. But these boundaries must be kept in place because people will take advantage if given the chance (sadly enough).
I will not allow MS to write the final chapter in my life. It is a poor writer after all, only showing the bad and none of the good. Instead, I will continue to write my current chapters and leave that last one unwritten until it arrives.
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Monday, September 16, 2013
Six Years!
Yesterday was my and Steve's six year anniversary. Hard to believe that it has already been six years in some respects, but then it feels much longer in others (in a good way). It feels as if we have always been together and the time before we were together was more of a story that I read at some point and remember vaguely. While he is in no way perfect (me either), he tries, which is more than I can say for most husbands out there. He doesn't try to be perfect, but he tries to give me what I need. Unfortunately for him, that seems to change on a daily basis! But he keeps trying and keeps communicating - which is really what I actually need.
We had a good weekend together, mostly spending time together going out to eat. But it was very enjoyable and gave us time to reconnect. We also began reading The Ocean at the End of the Lane by Neil Gaiman out loud to each other. If you have never read out loud to your spouse or had him read to you, you are really missing out! It allows the imagination to really take off like listening to a book on tape does. You don't have to focus where you are on a page and can just let your imagination run wild. All around fabulous!
Otherwise, not much going on in our world. I haven't had the time, the clean space, or the motivation to do much crafting lately. I have some fabric to make kitchen curtains and need to find the time soon to do that. I think the old ones, covered in a thick layer of cat hair shall be going in the trashcan. I have also been working on a baby gift for my new niece/nephew that will be arriving next year. It's looking good and I think I will have time to get it all done before baby arrives.
So, six years down, another sixty to go! :)
We had a good weekend together, mostly spending time together going out to eat. But it was very enjoyable and gave us time to reconnect. We also began reading The Ocean at the End of the Lane by Neil Gaiman out loud to each other. If you have never read out loud to your spouse or had him read to you, you are really missing out! It allows the imagination to really take off like listening to a book on tape does. You don't have to focus where you are on a page and can just let your imagination run wild. All around fabulous!
Otherwise, not much going on in our world. I haven't had the time, the clean space, or the motivation to do much crafting lately. I have some fabric to make kitchen curtains and need to find the time soon to do that. I think the old ones, covered in a thick layer of cat hair shall be going in the trashcan. I have also been working on a baby gift for my new niece/nephew that will be arriving next year. It's looking good and I think I will have time to get it all done before baby arrives.
So, six years down, another sixty to go! :)
Friday, November 16, 2012
Running out of room in my head
Stress doesn't even seem to be a big enough word for what I have been feeling lately. Terror might be closer...
Today was my husband's last day of work at what was his current job. The company did a massive layoff and he was affected by it. He was the carrier of our insurance so who knows how that is going to work. We are going to try to pay into Cobra but of course that is really expensive.
I will be having my gallbladder out in a little over a week. I am hopeful that this will help with a lot of the digestive issues that I have been experiencing lately. At the very least I hope it helps with the pain. I will be off for almost a week following the surgery. It will be nice to get some rest at least.
I had a follow-up MRI last Friday and got the results yesterday. The brain area was good with no new lesions and no active lesions. I have an active lesion on my spinal cord around the C4 area. No lesions in my thorasic area but I do have some arthritis and some misaligned vertebrae at T6-T7. That explains why I have pain in the middle area of my back.
My toe has healed though I have some lingering pain occasionally when I go to bend it.
Our honeymoon in Arkansas was amazing and a lot of fun. It rained on us most of the time we were there but it was still beautiful in the mountains. Our favorite activity was going to see the big cats at the Turpentine sanctuary where they rescue big cats who have not been taken care of by their owners. It was neat to be so close to lions, tigers, bears, cougars, bobcats, black panthers, leopards, and white tigers. I had to wear the boot on our honeymoon because my toe hadn't healed up yet but it wasn't too bad. The boot plus all the rain did make me slip a few times but I never fell thank goodness.
We are now trying to get ready for Christmas. Finding the money for this Christmas is going to be a little more difficult I think. But it will all work out. Because, Romans 8:28 - just gotta remember it!
Today was my husband's last day of work at what was his current job. The company did a massive layoff and he was affected by it. He was the carrier of our insurance so who knows how that is going to work. We are going to try to pay into Cobra but of course that is really expensive.
I will be having my gallbladder out in a little over a week. I am hopeful that this will help with a lot of the digestive issues that I have been experiencing lately. At the very least I hope it helps with the pain. I will be off for almost a week following the surgery. It will be nice to get some rest at least.
I had a follow-up MRI last Friday and got the results yesterday. The brain area was good with no new lesions and no active lesions. I have an active lesion on my spinal cord around the C4 area. No lesions in my thorasic area but I do have some arthritis and some misaligned vertebrae at T6-T7. That explains why I have pain in the middle area of my back.
My toe has healed though I have some lingering pain occasionally when I go to bend it.
Our honeymoon in Arkansas was amazing and a lot of fun. It rained on us most of the time we were there but it was still beautiful in the mountains. Our favorite activity was going to see the big cats at the Turpentine sanctuary where they rescue big cats who have not been taken care of by their owners. It was neat to be so close to lions, tigers, bears, cougars, bobcats, black panthers, leopards, and white tigers. I had to wear the boot on our honeymoon because my toe hadn't healed up yet but it wasn't too bad. The boot plus all the rain did make me slip a few times but I never fell thank goodness.
We are now trying to get ready for Christmas. Finding the money for this Christmas is going to be a little more difficult I think. But it will all work out. Because, Romans 8:28 - just gotta remember it!
Friday, June 22, 2012
Glowing....
That's what I will probably be doing today! I will be my own little flashlight, lol. I have to get a C-spine MRI and lumbar X-rays this afternoon to see if there is anything going on in my back that is causing the numbness and tingling in my legs along with the pain and weakness. Mostly likely there are lesions on my spinal cord that are causing this. It's just part of the deal with MS.
My hubby is going with me so we get to spend a little time out after I get done with everything. I am looking forward to getting to spend a little time with him and not be home. This weekend will be a busy one with SNA on Saturday night and then a family reunion and funeral on Sunday. Then Monday I will be off work to go to Iowa City for an appointment with my reproductive endocrinologist to get my PCOS back under control. Then another appt. with the neuro on July 2nd for a follow-up from the new meds. Hopefully we can get me working a little bit better!
Then my 30th Birthday is coming up!! Two weeks from last Wednesday! While I am still unsure about how it will feel to be out of my twenties, I love birthdays, especially mine. Looking forward to fireworks and presents!
My hubby is going with me so we get to spend a little time out after I get done with everything. I am looking forward to getting to spend a little time with him and not be home. This weekend will be a busy one with SNA on Saturday night and then a family reunion and funeral on Sunday. Then Monday I will be off work to go to Iowa City for an appointment with my reproductive endocrinologist to get my PCOS back under control. Then another appt. with the neuro on July 2nd for a follow-up from the new meds. Hopefully we can get me working a little bit better!
Then my 30th Birthday is coming up!! Two weeks from last Wednesday! While I am still unsure about how it will feel to be out of my twenties, I love birthdays, especially mine. Looking forward to fireworks and presents!
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Let Me Count the Ways - Version 2011
I have developed lists of reasons I love my husband so much over the last couple of anniversaries. I can’t believe that it’s been four years since we got married! So I am working on the list again. There are so many things I love about my husband so I am going to attempt not to repeat myself.
1. I really love having my husband working days right now. It is so wonderful that he can get a decent amount of sleep and I still get to see him in the evenings. It is great actually being able to sleep next to him. This will change when he goes to seconds on Oct. 1st, but I am soaking it up right now.
2. Steve stands by me, always. He was there with me through the whole process of getting diagnosed with MS. I can’t put into words the amount of support he has given me and how much it means to me. He also gives me my shots when I need help.
3. I love how he just opens his arms to me to get a hug and just holds me.
4. Steve took over the finances because it was getting too stressful for me to keep it up well. He is doing a fantastic job and I feel more comfortable now with where we are than I have in a long time.
5. He helps me clean around the house. This is a huge help, especially now when I get fatigued so easily.
6. He really listens to me when I need it and communicates well. This is a pretty rare quality in guys (communication is the number one complaint in marriage counseling couples!).
7. He is willing to step outside his comfort zone if he knows that attending an event is important to me. He is even taking a LIFE group with me this fall at the church.
8. He takes care of things for me. This sounds pretty vague, but this really encompasses a lot. Sometimes it’s just emptying the dishwasher when I ask, and other times it’s taking my truck and washing it by hand after the automatic carwash took my money, got soap all over the truck and stopped working.
9. He calls or texts me for no reason other than to tell me that he loves me. I love those messages!
10. He is so stinking smart! I can appreciate this even when he is kicking my butt at Words with Friends, which he does almost every game. I can appreciate this even more now that I am so foggy on the cognitive front.
1. I really love having my husband working days right now. It is so wonderful that he can get a decent amount of sleep and I still get to see him in the evenings. It is great actually being able to sleep next to him. This will change when he goes to seconds on Oct. 1st, but I am soaking it up right now.
2. Steve stands by me, always. He was there with me through the whole process of getting diagnosed with MS. I can’t put into words the amount of support he has given me and how much it means to me. He also gives me my shots when I need help.
3. I love how he just opens his arms to me to get a hug and just holds me.
4. Steve took over the finances because it was getting too stressful for me to keep it up well. He is doing a fantastic job and I feel more comfortable now with where we are than I have in a long time.
5. He helps me clean around the house. This is a huge help, especially now when I get fatigued so easily.
6. He really listens to me when I need it and communicates well. This is a pretty rare quality in guys (communication is the number one complaint in marriage counseling couples!).
7. He is willing to step outside his comfort zone if he knows that attending an event is important to me. He is even taking a LIFE group with me this fall at the church.
8. He takes care of things for me. This sounds pretty vague, but this really encompasses a lot. Sometimes it’s just emptying the dishwasher when I ask, and other times it’s taking my truck and washing it by hand after the automatic carwash took my money, got soap all over the truck and stopped working.
9. He calls or texts me for no reason other than to tell me that he loves me. I love those messages!
10. He is so stinking smart! I can appreciate this even when he is kicking my butt at Words with Friends, which he does almost every game. I can appreciate this even more now that I am so foggy on the cognitive front.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Let Me Count the Ways - Version 2010
Our three year anniversary is tomorrow. Last year I wrote a list of ten of my favorite things about my husband and our marriage. This year I aim to do the same thing. It was kind of hard though, looking back through the list from last year because they are all still true! I would likely end up repeating a lot of them. But I am going to give it a shot.
1.I love the way my husband’s eye crinkle when he smiles at me. It’s way cute.
2.He’s incredibly supportive of all my ideas, even the hair-brained ones.
3.He joined weight watchers with me this time so I could have the extra support of him counting points as well. It has made an incredible difference as I have lost over 36lbs so far. He has also lost a little extra weight he had wanted to lose.
4.I feel so safe with him. It doesn’t matter that we often have to walk after dark due to my schedule because I know he will always protect me.
5.I love his love for God and the commitment he has made to live his life in faith.
6.I love how he never takes me for granted. He would always tell me when we started dating, “Jen is not granted so don’t take her for it.” He never has.
7.We communicate pretty well for two people who both have hearing loss. I am sure it would be entertaining for someone to listen to us talk sometimes. But we still manage to figure it out eventually.
8.He is so incredibly intelligent. It blows my mind sometimes about how much information he is able to retain and then retrieve.
9.We truly enjoy each other’s company. I love spending time with him and I am pretty sure the feeling is mutual.
10.He’s pretty handy around the house. Though he doesn’t enjoy it very much, he is willing to tackle a project and then does it right. I think he’s pretty amazing at this kind of stuff.
So there are ten more things that I love about my husband and my marriage. I am so glad that I married Steve and I am so incredibly happy.
Happy Anniversary my love!
After I posted this on facebook this morning, he replied with a list of his own. So here it is copied and pasted. :)
In response:
1. I love the way Jen laughs. I think I could go the next hundred and fifty years without ever getting tired of it.
2. I love how she's constantly giving. Time, money, support. It doesn't seem to matter how much is asked, she's giving more.
3. I love sharing my life with her. There aren't many people I could stand being in a room with for more than twenty minutes, and I consider it a miracle I've found someone I can spend days on end talking to and sharing everything.
4. I love Jen's eyes. There really isn't anything more to this one, because they're just that awesome.
5. I love how she somehow manages to get me to do things I don't like doing. Be it attending costume parties in character to installing a new bathroom sink, she's got me completely wrapped around her little finger.
6. I love her family and her strong relationship with them. They've always been extremely supportive of both of us and our decision to get married.
7. I love the girl she was when we met and the woman she's become in the fourteen years since.
8. I love how sarcastic she can be when she has a mind to be.
9. I love the faces she makes.
10. Most of all, I love her and the idea of getting to spend the rest of my life with her.
1.I love the way my husband’s eye crinkle when he smiles at me. It’s way cute.
2.He’s incredibly supportive of all my ideas, even the hair-brained ones.
3.He joined weight watchers with me this time so I could have the extra support of him counting points as well. It has made an incredible difference as I have lost over 36lbs so far. He has also lost a little extra weight he had wanted to lose.
4.I feel so safe with him. It doesn’t matter that we often have to walk after dark due to my schedule because I know he will always protect me.
5.I love his love for God and the commitment he has made to live his life in faith.
6.I love how he never takes me for granted. He would always tell me when we started dating, “Jen is not granted so don’t take her for it.” He never has.
7.We communicate pretty well for two people who both have hearing loss. I am sure it would be entertaining for someone to listen to us talk sometimes. But we still manage to figure it out eventually.
8.He is so incredibly intelligent. It blows my mind sometimes about how much information he is able to retain and then retrieve.
9.We truly enjoy each other’s company. I love spending time with him and I am pretty sure the feeling is mutual.
10.He’s pretty handy around the house. Though he doesn’t enjoy it very much, he is willing to tackle a project and then does it right. I think he’s pretty amazing at this kind of stuff.
So there are ten more things that I love about my husband and my marriage. I am so glad that I married Steve and I am so incredibly happy.
Happy Anniversary my love!
After I posted this on facebook this morning, he replied with a list of his own. So here it is copied and pasted. :)
In response:
1. I love the way Jen laughs. I think I could go the next hundred and fifty years without ever getting tired of it.
2. I love how she's constantly giving. Time, money, support. It doesn't seem to matter how much is asked, she's giving more.
3. I love sharing my life with her. There aren't many people I could stand being in a room with for more than twenty minutes, and I consider it a miracle I've found someone I can spend days on end talking to and sharing everything.
4. I love Jen's eyes. There really isn't anything more to this one, because they're just that awesome.
5. I love how she somehow manages to get me to do things I don't like doing. Be it attending costume parties in character to installing a new bathroom sink, she's got me completely wrapped around her little finger.
6. I love her family and her strong relationship with them. They've always been extremely supportive of both of us and our decision to get married.
7. I love the girl she was when we met and the woman she's become in the fourteen years since.
8. I love how sarcastic she can be when she has a mind to be.
9. I love the faces she makes.
10. Most of all, I love her and the idea of getting to spend the rest of my life with her.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Highlights of 2009
This year has been a surprisingly tough one. Thinking over the last year leaves me wondering what 2010 could possibly bring me. The following is a bit of a run down of what the year was like. Hopefully I can do justice to the good things that have happened along with the not-so-good things.
1. January was a pretty good month I think, nothing major good or bad.
2. February was the month of my car accident. It happened on Feb 19th and then I got a kidney stone on Feb 23rd. Kind of a double whammy there! We were able to get new vehicles and for the first time in my life, I bought my own vehicle and got exactly what I wanted. There is always a silver lining.
3. March was pretty much a month of pain from the car accident. It hurt to do everything from washing my hair, picking up my nephew, gardening, and everything else.
4. April continued the healing process from the car accident. It was probably about this time that I realized that I would have to hire a lawyer to make sure that the car insurance covered what they were required to cover and I didn't get tricked out of them covering my medical bills.
5. May was a month of medical tests. I hired the lawyer at the beginning of the month. I also had a chest x-ray and a chest CT scan to try to determine why I was still experiencing pain in my chest. Neither showed an answer and my chiropractor hypothesized that it was due to ribs being out of place. Based on the pain in my chest and in my back I agreed that this was a likely cause for the pain. This was also the month that I talked to Geoff and Marissa about joining the First Christian Church and found that they were kindred souls. This month I made the decision that I would join FCC after I completed my obligations at the church in Loraine.
6. June was a fairly low-key month. At the end of the month, my vacation started and my mom and I painted our living room and I painted the upstairs guest bedroom and decorated it.
7. July was the month of my 27th birthday. I went forward at church on my birthday and joined the church and reconfirmed my faith in Jesus Christ. My best friend Jenn came for the weekend and we had a great time going around and taking pictures, getting her hair cut, and drinking margaritas at the mexican restaurant. This was the first year I took a whole week of vacation to just kick back and enjoy. Two weeks after my birthday I was baptized.
8. August was a month of reconnecting. My friend Aaron got married to a wonderful woman and I was blessed to have been able to be there. My aunt Debbie came back for a visit from Texas. I hadn't seen her since Steve and I got married so it was nice to visit with her again. My nephew turned three this month and we got to have a party to celebrate him. I also believe this was the month that my husband came forward at church and made his confession of faith and was baptized. Such an answered prayer! I think I also joined the praise band at church this month. I am so glad I did!
9. September marked my and Steve's two year wedding anniversary. It's hard to believe that such a wonderful man could be mine! We had a relatively low-key celebration as is our usual custom.
10. October was also a good month. I believe I had my fourth or fifth bout of tonsilitis this month and finally got an appointment scheduled in November to have them removed.
11. November was a very busy month. I had my tonsils removed on the 18th and then had to deal with recovery and Thanksgiving. Steve and I had to split our Thanksgivings this year since they were both on the same day. We also celebrated Christmas with his dad this month. This month also holds my husband's birthday on the 10th. I was also finally released by my chiropractor this month and my neck and chest and back are feeling pretty good. I still have some pain in my chest.
12. December was also a very busy month. We had about eight Christmas get-togethers to make it to. We made it to about five of them due to problems with the weather or scheduling problems. It was wonderful to spend time with family. I managed to crack my toenail and have to have that taken care of (yesterday) so it hurts. And I have an ultrasound today to determine if something is going on that shouldn't be. Praying that it will go well. We also got a kitty this month and he passed away three weeks later due to complications with his declaw. So this was kind of a sad month.
All in all it was a fairly stressful year but it also had plenty of blessings in it. I am very thankful to have a wonderful marriage with a great man and so many loving friends and family. I am grateful for a new church family that welcomed me and Steve with open arms. Hopefully all the medical issues will be resolving themselves soon and I will be able to get the car accident taken care of soon as well. There's my year in review!
1. January was a pretty good month I think, nothing major good or bad.
2. February was the month of my car accident. It happened on Feb 19th and then I got a kidney stone on Feb 23rd. Kind of a double whammy there! We were able to get new vehicles and for the first time in my life, I bought my own vehicle and got exactly what I wanted. There is always a silver lining.
3. March was pretty much a month of pain from the car accident. It hurt to do everything from washing my hair, picking up my nephew, gardening, and everything else.
4. April continued the healing process from the car accident. It was probably about this time that I realized that I would have to hire a lawyer to make sure that the car insurance covered what they were required to cover and I didn't get tricked out of them covering my medical bills.
5. May was a month of medical tests. I hired the lawyer at the beginning of the month. I also had a chest x-ray and a chest CT scan to try to determine why I was still experiencing pain in my chest. Neither showed an answer and my chiropractor hypothesized that it was due to ribs being out of place. Based on the pain in my chest and in my back I agreed that this was a likely cause for the pain. This was also the month that I talked to Geoff and Marissa about joining the First Christian Church and found that they were kindred souls. This month I made the decision that I would join FCC after I completed my obligations at the church in Loraine.
6. June was a fairly low-key month. At the end of the month, my vacation started and my mom and I painted our living room and I painted the upstairs guest bedroom and decorated it.
7. July was the month of my 27th birthday. I went forward at church on my birthday and joined the church and reconfirmed my faith in Jesus Christ. My best friend Jenn came for the weekend and we had a great time going around and taking pictures, getting her hair cut, and drinking margaritas at the mexican restaurant. This was the first year I took a whole week of vacation to just kick back and enjoy. Two weeks after my birthday I was baptized.
8. August was a month of reconnecting. My friend Aaron got married to a wonderful woman and I was blessed to have been able to be there. My aunt Debbie came back for a visit from Texas. I hadn't seen her since Steve and I got married so it was nice to visit with her again. My nephew turned three this month and we got to have a party to celebrate him. I also believe this was the month that my husband came forward at church and made his confession of faith and was baptized. Such an answered prayer! I think I also joined the praise band at church this month. I am so glad I did!
9. September marked my and Steve's two year wedding anniversary. It's hard to believe that such a wonderful man could be mine! We had a relatively low-key celebration as is our usual custom.
10. October was also a good month. I believe I had my fourth or fifth bout of tonsilitis this month and finally got an appointment scheduled in November to have them removed.
11. November was a very busy month. I had my tonsils removed on the 18th and then had to deal with recovery and Thanksgiving. Steve and I had to split our Thanksgivings this year since they were both on the same day. We also celebrated Christmas with his dad this month. This month also holds my husband's birthday on the 10th. I was also finally released by my chiropractor this month and my neck and chest and back are feeling pretty good. I still have some pain in my chest.
12. December was also a very busy month. We had about eight Christmas get-togethers to make it to. We made it to about five of them due to problems with the weather or scheduling problems. It was wonderful to spend time with family. I managed to crack my toenail and have to have that taken care of (yesterday) so it hurts. And I have an ultrasound today to determine if something is going on that shouldn't be. Praying that it will go well. We also got a kitty this month and he passed away three weeks later due to complications with his declaw. So this was kind of a sad month.
All in all it was a fairly stressful year but it also had plenty of blessings in it. I am very thankful to have a wonderful marriage with a great man and so many loving friends and family. I am grateful for a new church family that welcomed me and Steve with open arms. Hopefully all the medical issues will be resolving themselves soon and I will be able to get the car accident taken care of soon as well. There's my year in review!
Saturday, August 1, 2009
A Bittersweet Month
It's been almost a month since the last time I have updated my blog. For awhile there I had it locked, worrying that someone would interpret something wrong and use it against me. Well, perhaps they will but last time I checked it was a free country and I am free to express my thoughts as they are my own. Besides, I only know of a few people who even read it, so I am not much worried. Moving on....
Things have been quite busy for me and my husband. July was a full month, a great month, a bittersweet month, and a sad month. I got to see my best friend for a few days around my birthday, though she didn't feel well most of the time. I am hoping to get out to Arizona next year to see her again. I joined the First Christian Church in Keokuk and was rebaptized last Saturday night. It was really great and my family was all there to see it. It felt good to rededicate myself to doing God's work and following Him. I hope I can live my life in such a way as to deserve all the blessings he has given me.
We recently got a puppy but had to take her back to the shelter today. It was heartbreaking to take her back but we knew it was what was best for us. My allergies got worse while she was here and we simply don't have the time to dedicate to training her as she needed. She was a sweet and smart puppy and I miss her. I feel like we made the right decision though because the shelter had had another family that wanted a puppy come by and so they were going to call them. The family had a young girl that I know Daisy will love and who will love her. It was probably one of the hardest decisions that I have ever made. We donated all of the things we had gotten for her to the shelter: the food, kennel, toys, treats, etc. They will make good use of them and continue to do good work for animals. I have resigned myself to just having out Betta fish b/c at least I am not allergic to him.
I attended a wedding this afternoon for a very good friend of mine. It's almost strange calling him a really good friend considering we see each other maybe once or twice a year. But he's the kind of friend that you just pick up with where you left off the last time, a kindred soul. I am so happy for him and his new bride and their family. I know they will be very happy together and it was wonderful getting to be there with them.
I went out with my husband tonight after church and had dinner and great conversation. It's amazing how I feel like I love him more every single day. Just when I think it's not possible to love him anymore, my heart capacity gets a little bigger. If more men were as kind and understanding and faithful and willing to compromise and listen as he is; there would be a lot fewer divorces. He makes me want to be a better wife and a better person.
I have another wedding (a renewal really) next weekend for friends who are celebrating their 15th wedding anniversay. I will be singing during the service. It's been a long time since I looked forward to singing with anticipation instead of dread. I know that God gave me this talent and that I should be using it to glorify His name. When I think about it that way, I don't get so nervous and worried that I will mess up. God will love me no matter what. Steve should be there with me during both the church service and the wedding. He switched with another guy that he works with so he will be working tomorrow (Sunday) night and will have Friday night off. We don't get very many Friday nights together so I am looking forward to a date night. And he will be all rested up and able to go to church and the wedding with me.
Now, I believe it is time to go to bed so that I can be rested and awake for church in the morning.
Things have been quite busy for me and my husband. July was a full month, a great month, a bittersweet month, and a sad month. I got to see my best friend for a few days around my birthday, though she didn't feel well most of the time. I am hoping to get out to Arizona next year to see her again. I joined the First Christian Church in Keokuk and was rebaptized last Saturday night. It was really great and my family was all there to see it. It felt good to rededicate myself to doing God's work and following Him. I hope I can live my life in such a way as to deserve all the blessings he has given me.
We recently got a puppy but had to take her back to the shelter today. It was heartbreaking to take her back but we knew it was what was best for us. My allergies got worse while she was here and we simply don't have the time to dedicate to training her as she needed. She was a sweet and smart puppy and I miss her. I feel like we made the right decision though because the shelter had had another family that wanted a puppy come by and so they were going to call them. The family had a young girl that I know Daisy will love and who will love her. It was probably one of the hardest decisions that I have ever made. We donated all of the things we had gotten for her to the shelter: the food, kennel, toys, treats, etc. They will make good use of them and continue to do good work for animals. I have resigned myself to just having out Betta fish b/c at least I am not allergic to him.
I attended a wedding this afternoon for a very good friend of mine. It's almost strange calling him a really good friend considering we see each other maybe once or twice a year. But he's the kind of friend that you just pick up with where you left off the last time, a kindred soul. I am so happy for him and his new bride and their family. I know they will be very happy together and it was wonderful getting to be there with them.
I went out with my husband tonight after church and had dinner and great conversation. It's amazing how I feel like I love him more every single day. Just when I think it's not possible to love him anymore, my heart capacity gets a little bigger. If more men were as kind and understanding and faithful and willing to compromise and listen as he is; there would be a lot fewer divorces. He makes me want to be a better wife and a better person.
I have another wedding (a renewal really) next weekend for friends who are celebrating their 15th wedding anniversay. I will be singing during the service. It's been a long time since I looked forward to singing with anticipation instead of dread. I know that God gave me this talent and that I should be using it to glorify His name. When I think about it that way, I don't get so nervous and worried that I will mess up. God will love me no matter what. Steve should be there with me during both the church service and the wedding. He switched with another guy that he works with so he will be working tomorrow (Sunday) night and will have Friday night off. We don't get very many Friday nights together so I am looking forward to a date night. And he will be all rested up and able to go to church and the wedding with me.
Now, I believe it is time to go to bed so that I can be rested and awake for church in the morning.
Friday, January 9, 2009
Hmmm....
Well it's been awhile since I updated. I gained about six pounds over the holidays (about three per week). I think we just had too much going on for me to keep up with eating well. I tried to eat less but I will still eating really rich foods and goodies of course. I also haven't been feeling well and my body has been having some stuff going on. So this week I only lost 0.8 lbs of the weight that I gained. However, when I got on the scale this morning, I was three pounds lighter and that was good. I just have to keep that going until next week on my weigh-in day. I should have more relaxed day at work compared to the rest of the week that was kinda crazy. So I have organized my desk and am waiting for my ten o'clock by listening to my Twilight soundtrack. My hubby got it for me for Christmas and I really like it. If my health stuff doesn't get back on track this week then my doc is going to X-Ray my abdomen. :( Let's hope it doesn't come to that.
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