Stuff, and stuff, nonsense, and responsibility

You ever try to blame your problems on the world, fate, luck, karma, satan, God? Feel like the world is out to get you? Do you ever stop and think that maybe, just maybe, the problem might be you? So many people don't want to take responsibility for their problems or the bad things in life. Sure, I think there are outside forces at work, forces of good and forces of evil. But sometimes I wonder how much they leave us to our own devices. Do we need a little devil sitting on our shoulder to do bad things, think bad things, treat others like crap, treat ourselves like crap? I would say no, not really. We as humans pretty much do all that just in our own human nature.

I know it's something I struggle with on a day to day basis. Did the milk overflow in my cup because of some outside force? Nope, it did because I wasn't paying attention and didn't take into account the space required by the mix I added. You've heard "haste makes waste", well it does a lot in my life. Am I am unhealthy and overweight because the devil is trying to bring me down or because God is giving me trials to learn patience. Nope. I am overweight because I eat too much and don't exercise. Pretty plain and simple. Eating too much and not exercising then leads to other diseases (PCOS, and I wouldn't be surprised if it was related to my MS).

And sometimes life just happens. People live, people die. They don't really ask us for permission first either, I think that's why we get mad. We want to control every last second and heaven forbid an accident occur that changes our routine. We think that our loved ones can live forever and we get mad when they fail us. We spend time trying to develop a "fountain of youth" despite the overpopulation that is already occurring.

Today I am going to start trying to take responsibility for me. If something screws up, and it's my fault, then I am going to own it. I won't get mad or think the milk is out to get me. I will simply say, well, looks like I messed up, better luck next time! I am making the choice about what I am putting in my body as well. No one is shoving food in my mouth (doing a good enough job myself thank you very much). If I stop doing it then it won't be happening at all!  If I take on too much and get stressed out then it is my job to not be mad at the people who asked but strict with myself about cutting back and saying "no". My chance to be better, to feel better, and by gosh, to look better too.

Here goes nothing!